I have officially completed one year of college and I am overwhelmed with the emotions that this brings. I have grown so much in this past year and I am proud of myself. When I came to Utah State I was afraid. I was scared that I wouldn't meet anyone, scared that I wouldn't belong, and scared that I would lose who I am.
It's overwhelming to think of what I have done this year in regards to my own personal growth. And as my Mom loves to refer to it-- I've realized that I have wings and I love using them. I'm realizing who I am and I am finding myself . This summer I've set out on another adventure- Instead of returning home I am staying in Bear Lake and working.
And before this year, I don't think that I've ever really fallen in love. This year I fell in love and it hurt. It wasn't meant to be, and for a long time my heart was broken. I trusted this boy. We were best friends and he knew everything about me from my fears to my sense of humor. I told him everything and he told me everything, until one day that changed. I was so hurt by him, but he still was holding my heart, and I couldn't help but forgive him. That's the way I am- I cannot help but forgive and forgive completely. I learned that I can forgive- but I have to forget.
I love the poet r m drake and this poem truly struck me:
She was never crazy.
She just didn't want her heart to settle in a cage.
My heart was never meant to settle in a cage. I'm tired of being trapped and being hurt, and I'm setting myself free. This summer will be a time to find myself and I couldn't possibly be more excited.
Outfit details:
Hat: Borrowed from sister (F21)
Dress: Ross
Tights: Forgotten
Shoes: Thrifted
O my... Since you haven't blogged for a while, I didn't know you had a relationship! I feel sorry for you for what happend. It really touched me what you wrote.
ReplyDeleteOn a other note... Your style is so different than your usual, but I like it a lot!
Monique! It's so good to hear from you! I haven't been blogging (ore reading my favorite blogs) for a while just because I've been trying to sort out everything in my life. I'm glad what I wrote touched you.
DeleteI hadn't really even noticed that my style was changing- but I suppose that in some ways that it has! I'm so glad that we have been able to become friends through our blogs!